This is the first time I've posted in months and it feels weird. I feel as if I've fallen off the tech train and have shut myself up in some strange little world. I still check my email every day or two and check Facebook once a week or so and scan Amazon for items for my future house, but otherwise, I've done no posting or internet related things; including abstaining from almost all anime related objects.
I'm not sure what's going on with me to be truthful. Since we've moved back home I just don't feel like I have any direction in my life. My internship is over, but I signed on for another few weeks to assist in the archives. Ate is coming down in a few weeks and maybe that will help, but right now I feel very rudderless.
My garden is pretty much moving along by itself. The caterpillars ate most of my squash plants so I'm thinking I won't get anything from them. The sweet potato vines killed off my cucumbers, but the peppers and tomato plants are making a comeback and I'm hopeful that they will produce fruit. So far the only thing that has fruited are the green beans and the herbs. We got two jalapenos off Dad's plants and a few baby calamansi citrus fruit, but the wild grapes are coming in thick and our cultivated grapes are just about ready, so we'll at least have grape juice & jelly.
Because I don't really feel like I'm contributing anything right now, I've gotten on a weird survivalist kick. I've revamped my emergency kit and added a bunch of new items like a telescoping fishing pole and a headlamp and other items and have stocked up the garage pantry with dry goods, water, and MREs (meals ready to eat). It's not that I think the world is going to end tomorrow, I just want a bit more control over my life and this is an easy way to get it.
We have always had an emergency kit. I think it is intelligent to have something easy to grab for emergencies like hurricanes, earthquakes, and severe storms. Since I grew up with the first issue and then lived with the second for ten years, I know how very important it is to have something organized should you need to go to a shelter or get a flat tire on a rural road. The things I need to do now is organize copies of our important documents and add it to our kit. Sometimes I forget that should another Katrina hit us, all our paperwork might be lost as well, and that is not something I would want to deal with.
I've been struggling with the idea of going back to work as well as getting out of the anime world for a few months now and I don't see an easy solution to either of them. Normally if I felt this way I would go back to school, but I can't do that here with the residency issues, so I'm at a loss as to what I'm supposed to do with my life. I just feel very adrift and it's equal parts frustrating and terrifying.
"We are part of this universe. We are in this universe. The universe is in us. We are star dust. In the highest exalted way. Called by the universe. Reaching out to the universe." ~Neil deGrasse Tyson
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Tech Train Reject
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
AMNH: Cell to Cell Communication Lecture
I feel very disturbed after going to the AMNH SciCafe tonight. I asked if a person's bacteria biome could dictate why that person reacts to different types of medications differently and was told that they don't believe so, but that there is still much they don't know about the interaction between the bacteria and our bodies.
So, I still don't know why I react so violently to modern chemical medications, while herbal ones seem to work and why my system is so weird. I don't know of anyone my age that still consumes as much calcium as I do, or who sleeps to get rid of illness.
My contraction of fifths disease (parvovirus B19) as a child, Epstein-barr virus as an adult, and subsequent partial-paralization and immune issues due to complications from the medicine the doctor prescribed makes me concerned that there were lasting effects that are not normal. Codine, oxicodine, amoxociline, morphine, die-contrast, cigarette smoke, capsicum, onion and garlic oils, etc. They all cause me to have severe allergic reactions, and yet, I don't have the typical autoimmune symptoms like asthma and I no longer have anemia (a meat rich diet kicked that issue), so I don't think I am a 'normal' test case. Is this paranoia or am I on to something? I don't know and it makes me nervous.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Theodore Roosevelt National Park
In 1901, Teddy Roosevelt said in regards to the Badlands of South Dakota and the park named after himself, “We get exactly as much in hunting with the camera as in hunting with the rifle; and of the two, the former is the kind of sport which calls, for the higher degree of skill, patience, resolution, and knowledge of the life history of the animal sought.”
I have a bit of a Theodore Roosevelt crush I guess you could say. He reminds me of a more vigorous version of my father, naturalist, hunter, outdoors man, scientist, preservationist. I have no doubt that if my father had been around when Roosevelt was, and they ever met, Teddy would clasp him hardily on the shoulder and laugh as he drug him onto a horse or train and went exploring.
I'd love to see the Badlands some day. It's on my very long list of places to visit, including Mongolia and the Azores. But for a trip to South Dakota, I'd take my father and go by rail. I think that would be the most appropriate.
I have a bit of a Theodore Roosevelt crush I guess you could say. He reminds me of a more vigorous version of my father, naturalist, hunter, outdoors man, scientist, preservationist. I have no doubt that if my father had been around when Roosevelt was, and they ever met, Teddy would clasp him hardily on the shoulder and laugh as he drug him onto a horse or train and went exploring.
I'd love to see the Badlands some day. It's on my very long list of places to visit, including Mongolia and the Azores. But for a trip to South Dakota, I'd take my father and go by rail. I think that would be the most appropriate.
Thursday, February 28, 2013
The Randomness of my Life
Is pretty damn random. Today, for example, beyond the work stuff that is, I found this cute little Children's book store (Wonders of Books) and picked up a copy of the Canterbury Tales (one of my favorite), signed copies of Chu's Day (Neil Gaiman) and Nightsong (Ari Berk, Loren Long), and a nice little Tomato broth and kale soup for lunch.
I reserved tickets for us to go to a lecture by Richard Ellis at the AMNH in two weeks about Sharks and tonight we are going to the Scandinavia House to see a concert by and Estonian cappella ensemble called Greip.
o.0
Not really sure how much father I gotta go to be random...oh, I forgot my Grit magazine came in, so I'm reading about chickens on the subway in between essays on the Firefly/Serenity show out of the Finding Serenity book I picked up earlier this week.
Yup, I think I've got 'random' down pat!
I reserved tickets for us to go to a lecture by Richard Ellis at the AMNH in two weeks about Sharks and tonight we are going to the Scandinavia House to see a concert by and Estonian cappella ensemble called Greip.
o.0
Not really sure how much father I gotta go to be random...oh, I forgot my Grit magazine came in, so I'm reading about chickens on the subway in between essays on the Firefly/Serenity show out of the Finding Serenity book I picked up earlier this week.
Yup, I think I've got 'random' down pat!
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Auguries of Innocence
The Pickering
Manuscript (Bentley 126.13) "Auguries of Innocence"
~William Blake~
Thy Brother has armd himself in Steel
To avenge the wrongs thy Children feel
But vain the Sword & vain the Bow
They never can work Wars overthrow
The Hermits Prayer & the Widows Tear
Alone can free the World from fear
For a Tear is an Intellectual Thing
And a Sigh is the Sword of an Angel King
And the bitter groan of the Martyrs woe
Is an Arrow from the Almighties Bow
The hand of Vengeance found the Bed
To which the Purple Tyrant fled
The iron hand crushd the Tyrants head
And became a Tyrant in his Stead
Auguries of Innocence
To see a World in a Grain of Sand
And a Heaven in a Wild Flower
Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand
And Eternity in an hour
A Robin Red breast in a Cage
Puts all Heaven in a Rage
A Dove house filld with Doves & Pigeons
Shudders hell thro’ all its regions.
A dog starv’d at his master’s gate
Predicts the ruin of the state.
A horse misused upon the road
Calls to heaven for human blood.
Each outcry of the hunted hare
A fibre from the brain does tear.
A skylark wounded in the wing,
A cherubim does cease to sing.
The game-cock clipt and arm’d for fight
Does the rising sun affright.
Every wolf’s and lion’s howl
Raises from hell a human soul.
The wild deer, wand’ring here and there,
Keeps the human soul from care.
The lamb misus’d breeds public strife,
And yet forgives the butcher’s knife.
The bat that flits at close of eve
Has left the brain that won’t believe.
The owl that calls upon the night
Speaks the unbeliever’s fright.
He who shall hurt the little wren
Shall never be belov’d by men.
He who the ox to wrath has mov’d
Shall never be by woman lov’d.
The wanton boy that kills the fly
Shall feel the spider’s enmity.
He who torments the chafer’s sprite
Weaves a bower in endless night.
The caterpillar on the leaf
Repeats to thee thy mother’s grief.
Kill not the moth nor butterfly,
For the last judgment draweth nigh.
He who shall train the horse to war
Shall never pass the polar bar.
The beggar’s dog and widow’s cat,
Feed them and thou wilt grow fat.
The gnat that sings his summer’s song
Poison gets from slander’s tongue.
The poison of the snake and newt
Is the sweat of envy’s foot.
The poison of the honey bee
Is the artist’s jealousy.
The prince’s robes and beggar’s rags
Are toadstools on the miser’s bags.
A truth that’s told with bad intent
Beats all the lies you can invent.
It is right it should be so;
Man was made for joy and woe;
And when this we rightly know,
Thro’ the world we safely go.
Joy and woe are woven fine,
A clothing for the soul divine.
Under every grief and pine
Runs a joy with silken twine.
The babe is more than swaddling bands;
Throughout all these human lands
Tools were made, and born were hands,
Every farmer understands.
Every tear from every eye
Becomes a babe in eternity;
This is caught by females bright,
And return’d to its own delight.
The bleat, the bark, bellow, and roar,
Are waves that beat on heaven’s shore.
The babe that weeps the rod beneath
Writes revenge in realms of death.
The beggar’s rags, fluttering in air,
Does to rags the heavens tear.
The soldier, arm’d with sword and gun,
Palsied strikes the summer’s sun.
The poor man’s farthing is worth more
Than all the gold on Afric’s shore.
One mite wrung from the lab’rer’s hands
Shall buy and sell the miser’s lands;
Or, if protected from on high,
Does that whole nation sell and buy.
He who mocks the infant’s faith
Shall be mock’d in age and death.
He who shall teach the child to doubt
The rotting grave shall ne’er get out.
He who respects the infant’s faith
Triumphs over hell and death.
The child’s toys and the old man’s reasons
Are the fruits of the two seasons.
The questioner, who sits so sly,
Shall never know how to reply.
He who replies to words of doubt
Doth put the light of knowledge out.
The strongest poison ever known
Came from Caesar’s laurel crown.
Nought can deform the human race
Like to the armour’s iron brace.
When gold and gems adorn the plow,
To peaceful arts shall envy bow.
A riddle, or the cricket’s cry,
Is to doubt a fit reply.
The emmet’s inch and eagle’s mile
Make lame philosophy to smile.
He who doubts from what he sees
Will ne’er believe, do what you please.
If the sun and moon should doubt,
They’d immediately go out.
To be in a passion you good may do,
But no good if a passion is in you.
The whore and gambler, by the state
Licensed, build that nation’s fate.
The harlot’s cry from street to street
Shall weave old England’s winding-sheet.
The winner’s shout, the loser’s curse,
Dance before dead England’s hearse.
Every night and every morn
Some to misery are born,
Every morn and every night
Some are born to sweet delight.
Some are born to sweet delight,
Some are born to endless night.
We are led to believe a lie
When we see not thro’ the eye,
Which was born in a night to perish in a night,
When the soul slept in beams of light.
God appears, and God is light,
To those poor souls who dwell in night;
But does a human form display
To those who dwell in realms of day.
Farm Animal Ideas
I don't know if I've mentioned we want a farm before, but we do. We're still debating where though. In the meantime, I wanted to post the different types of animals we wanted based on the different regions.
I guess you can figure out the colors I like and the fact that they are all kinda 'unique;' like I'd have anything less. :)
Cold:
Favorolles Chickens
Yak
KuneKune Pig
Cotswold Sheep
Mytonic Goats
Temperate:
Brabanter Chickens
Curly Sizzle Chickens
KuneKune Pig
Tunis Sheep
Mytonic Goats
Hot & Dry:
Ameraucana Chickens
Guinea Hog
Guinea Fowl
Mytonic Goats
Navajo Churro Sheep
Hot & Wet:
Guinea Fowl
Guinea Hog
Mytonic Goats
Boer Goats
Gulf Coast Sheep
Guinea Cracker Cattle
I guess you can figure out the colors I like and the fact that they are all kinda 'unique;' like I'd have anything less. :)
Saturday, February 16, 2013
God I look so young!
LOL I watched Tales from the Green Valley today and it made me remember when my parents and I took Civil War reenactment photos. The flowers are to hide my dad's tennis shoes. :) This was 1993 or so I think.
Friday, February 15, 2013
Forever^n
Well, let's see what has been going on since I last posted...I guess the main thing is that we were both let-go from our jobs. I'm 'transitioning' my work for another month, but P has been out of it completely since mid January. We've been dealing with a bunch of health issues too, so that's been taking up a lot of our time.
On the positive side though, we've gone to the AMNH twice: once for a tour during regular hours and once for an after-hours members only showing of some of the more popular sections of the museum. I've also started another COURSERA class: Astrobiology and the Search for Extraterrestrial Life. hehe I'm taking a class on ET, fab! It's through the University of Edinburgh and actually is more about Interplanetary Life Systems than anything else. Right now we're working on why life developed on Earth in the first place. We'll move outward to other worlds after finishing this section.
We may end up going home instead of staying here, so I'm trying to decide on next steps for us. I really don't want to work in my current field anymore and am considering going back to school for my Masters. I'd like to do Anthropology with a concentration with Historic Agricultural Preservation (i.e. preserving heritage animal and plant breeds as well as farming practices). Since that particular degree isn't offered anywhere, I'm trying to find a combination of classes/internships/volunteer positions that I can use to simulate the degree.
I haven't even left yet and I've already submitted the volunteer form and taken the online training for the local county organization back home. :) There are two really awesome locations I'd love to work at, one's a nature preserve and one is a historical preservation site. Both are amazing to visit and if I could end up working there as a volunteer or intern for a few months before finding work or going back to school, I'd be a lot happier.
Other than that, I'm just tired. There's so much to do at work and home and honestly, I'm going to need at least a month off just to get the house organized and packed. At least when we go home I'll be able to sleep without hearing ambulances and car horns, and see the stars. That would be lovely!
On the positive side though, we've gone to the AMNH twice: once for a tour during regular hours and once for an after-hours members only showing of some of the more popular sections of the museum. I've also started another COURSERA class: Astrobiology and the Search for Extraterrestrial Life. hehe I'm taking a class on ET, fab! It's through the University of Edinburgh and actually is more about Interplanetary Life Systems than anything else. Right now we're working on why life developed on Earth in the first place. We'll move outward to other worlds after finishing this section.
We may end up going home instead of staying here, so I'm trying to decide on next steps for us. I really don't want to work in my current field anymore and am considering going back to school for my Masters. I'd like to do Anthropology with a concentration with Historic Agricultural Preservation (i.e. preserving heritage animal and plant breeds as well as farming practices). Since that particular degree isn't offered anywhere, I'm trying to find a combination of classes/internships/volunteer positions that I can use to simulate the degree.
I haven't even left yet and I've already submitted the volunteer form and taken the online training for the local county organization back home. :) There are two really awesome locations I'd love to work at, one's a nature preserve and one is a historical preservation site. Both are amazing to visit and if I could end up working there as a volunteer or intern for a few months before finding work or going back to school, I'd be a lot happier.
Other than that, I'm just tired. There's so much to do at work and home and honestly, I'm going to need at least a month off just to get the house organized and packed. At least when we go home I'll be able to sleep without hearing ambulances and car horns, and see the stars. That would be lovely!
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